Gamova admitted that she wanted to commit suicide. And she said that she was saving

The famous Russian volleyball player Ekaterina Gamova, who is a two -time world champion (2006, 2010) and Europe (1999, 2001), as well as a two -time silver medalist of the Olympic Games (2000, 2004), admitted that she wanted to commit suicide, and also said that she was saved.– Your child was born quite late, as they say in Russia. Did it make you happier?
– It is very difficult. Motherhood is very difficult and very difficult. Not in relation to the child, but in relation to how your life changes. This is hyper -realization, anxiety. This did not add any joy at all. Therefore, I often say that winning the World Cup is much easier than raising a child.– How did the birth of your son change?
– I ran into postpartum depression. This is the most difficult thing that was. You are listening to the fact that when a child is born, these are butterflies in the stomach, pony pink, all so beautiful and happy. And here you do not feel joy, because you are not sleeping, you do not belong to yourself, you cannot leave anywhere or somehow change some of your plans. Your life completely changes and obeys one small person. It was with this change, as well as with the fact that I, apparently, did not sleep, was very difficult for me. And this led to such consequences. At first I said that I feel bad, my spouse. And I am very grateful to him that he did not dismiss and did not say: Come on, that you are invented. On the contrary, he called a friend of the doctor. A psychotherapist, after hearing everything, said: “Quickly to me at an appointment.”“Then you could not take any pills, because you fed?”
– By that time I had not fed. I have been in this state for more than a year. And the doctor said that, apparently, due to my sports nature, I was able to hold out for so long.“And what happened to you?”
-Firstly, I was not glad at all that the child was born. I had suicidal thoughts. I thought my torment would stop. But I was afraid that I would be crippled, but I would not kill.“Do you think it stopped you?”
– yes.– My wife could not say that she loves [ребенка].
– This is fine. I talked with a psychotherapist and a psychologist. It is normal that some mothers have euphoria and emotions, and some have a feeling of love gradually. In my case, it was not a firework of emotions, it was gradually.– I think that here you must say this. Because I can’t imagine how many people go through it.
– So many. And the worst thing is that they do not admit to themselves. They do not understand that they need help. And relatives who are nearby also do not realize that a person needs help.– Is it so strong fatigue or what?
– This is all together. This is fatigue, unjustified expectations, changes in your life, hormones … all together. And you cannot deal with this. Only with the help of a psychotherapist.– You said that you were not glad that the child was born.
– Yes. With the birth of a child, my life changed so much that I was not at all happy about this.“And you, too, could not say that you love him?”
– At first – no. It was such a strange sensation when you want to break out of the house to stay alone, you are leaving home, and you begin to torment your thoughts and doubts that you left the child at home. Not one, of course, but with a nanny, with her husband, with someone else. But these torment and throwing … you cannot be together, and you cannot be without it. It was a very difficult period.– It is heard superbranding, because I see you a huge number of posts that are dedicated to my son. And you can see how just you are drowning from love for him.
– All my love, peace, acceptance … I grow with him, it turns out like a mother. I was saved and allowed me to be a happy mother that I went into therapy. And the fact that there was a husband near me, who did not dismiss me, but realized that the matter smells very much with kerasing.– What to do to women who are in this situation?
-Firstly, do not tolerate. Do not think that you are not like that. Do not be afraid to tell about it. The closest one is, of course, the father of the child who should be near, although it does not always work out. If you see that she is crying, she complains about something, she has no mood, these are all the bells that you should pay attention to and at least just ask what is happening. Do not write off all this on hormones. This is not always hormones. This is a completely normal state. And at this situation, any person can get into this situation – even the happiest who was very expecting a child. Because in my case, Nikita is a very long -awaited child. We really waited for him, we wanted, planned, ”said 44-year-old Gamova in an interview with the YouTube channel Viti Kravchenko. We will have that Gamova gave birth to her son at 38 years old-in September 2019.